Five employees is not a number that sounds large. For a boutique agency that launched with no clients, no revenue, and no strategy in April 1996, it represented something significant. Each of those five people had attached their livelihood to work that Susi was generating. By the mid-2000s, the pressure of sustaining that had accumulated in ways that a referral-based, relationship-driven agency without outside funding is not always equipped to absorb.

In 2006, the agency closed.

There was no public statement. No reframe dressed up to make the closure sound like a choice. The business that had grown from a set of letterhead on a front stoop, through a sold piano and eight weeks in Costa Rica, through Jewish nonprofits and bulldog photo shoots and award-winning catering campaigns, stopped.

For Susi, the emotional weight of that moment was not abstract. She had built the agency by hand, hired people, sustained relationships, and delivered work that outlasted the clients who commissioned it. Closing was not a strategic reset. It was a loss.

What she did not do was stop.

Between 2009 and 2016, Susi continued working as a freelancer under the name A&M Marketing, a reference to her children, Alex and Mya. The scale was smaller, the budget tighter, and the weight of sustaining the work fell entirely on her while she was also raising her family.

She has described this period plainly: “I never really stopped working. I just scaled back and rebuilt smarter.”

Scaling back is not the same as giving up. Rebuilding smarter is not the same as starting over. The freelance years were not a gap in the story of Silesky Marketing. They were part of the story where the foundation of what came next was being quietly re-examined, one project and one decision at a time.

Going from a five-person operation to working solo strips away every layer of infrastructure a small agency builds over time. No creative partner to divide the problem with. No team to absorb a difficult client or a chaotic deadline. Just the work, the client relationships, and the discipline to show up for both without anything external holding the structure in place.

In the early years, Susi had described her own approach as winging it, building the structure while the work was already in motion. That approach got the agency off the ground, and it also showed its limits when the pressure intensified. The solo years made those limits specific. Strategy first, always, collaboratively with a team she trusted — those three commitments did not come from a curriculum or a consulting engagement. They came from watching what held and what gave way under pressure, then arriving at conclusions the hard way. The freelance period was not comfortable. It was clarifying.

A rebuild does not look like a relaunch event or a new logo. It looks like a long, quiet period of deciding what to keep and what to leave behind. Susi kept the relationships. The standard for work built to last stayed. So did the instinct for creative decisions that other people had not thought to make yet.

What changed was the architecture of how she worked. Less reactive. More deliberate. Grounded in strategy before execution, every time. By the time she was ready to relaunch, she was not trying to return to the agency she had closed. She was building a different one, shaped by everything the first version had cost her.

In 2016, Susi relaunched the agency. The second iteration shared a name and a founder with the original, but the intention behind every decision had shifted. The first version had grown organically, shaped by whatever the work required in the moment. The second was built from a position of earned understanding, with a clearer sense of the clients she wanted to serve and the kind of work she wanted to do for them.

The team that formed around the relaunched agency reflected that shift. Every person brought in was chosen with intention, not assembled out of necessity. The agency that operates today grew directly from those decisions. Silesky Marketing now runs as a fully integrated boutique agency with a small, deliberate team covering strategy, content, social media, design, and web. The structure did not arrive all at once. It was assembled the same way the original agency had been, one relationship and one project at a time, but this time with a clearer blueprint at the center.

“Most founders are too close to the fire to see where the smoke is coming from.”

That observation did not come from a marketing textbook. A founder who has been in that position, more than once, in more than one version of her own business, does not need to theorize about it.

In practice, the extra-seats model shows up in specific ways. Identifying the disconnect between a sales pitch and a landing page. Recognizing when a brand identity has outgrown the actual expertise behind it. Telling clients what the brand needs rather than what the client wants to hear. Those are not comfortable conversations. They are also the reason clients stay.

The rebuild did not produce a shinier version of the original agency. A decade of working without a net, followed by a deliberate decision to stop winging it, produced something more durable, a business built on conclusions rather than instincts alone. Susi had already proven she could start something from nothing. The harder proof was that she could lose it, keep working through the loss, and come back with a clearer sense of what the work was actually for.

Thirty years in, the agency she runs is not the one she accidentally started in 1996. It is the one the hard years built.

Part 4, “Marketing Lessons from 30 Years of Building Brands,” covers what three decades of building, losing, and rebuilding actually leave behind.